Well it certainly has been an odd week. Perhaps its part of the dreaded 3s (as I'm now in my 3rd month).
Monday and Tuesday - felt absolute cr*p! Could not get out of bed - and was all feverish and shivery - am now sure it was a flu like thingy (as you can see I'm no doctor!). Really got me down. And of course my shoulder is still mending (infact growing new bone so I'm told) - so my body is working a bit of overtime at the moment. But during this time I hardly thought about smoking or fags at all. So that was good.
Wednesday - felt a bit better (but still a bit tired) and made it into work - was pretty useless tho I must say. Still no real smoking thoughts.
Thursday - felt much better - so what did I think about all day - having a fag!! Madness!! Everything I did - cup of tea, have a bath, sit in front of the tv - my first thought was - "I feel like a fag". They were more feelings of something lost - rather than a full on sofa-gnawing-I'm-gonna-kill-you craving - and they passed. But it was odd.
Today - am in work - and better still. Not thinking about them so much - and work has been great today. But have got a sort of hollow feeling at the back of my throat sometimes - like I want a good drag of a fag to get that burning feeling.
I won't of course - and will wait for this to pass.
Rome wasn't built in a day - and I smoked nearly 30 years - so its a hell of a change for a body and mind to go through.
10 weeks monday! Here I come.