I am starting Day 1 again tomorrow. I started smoking again last Thursday after 8 weeks of giving up CT. I was feeling elated at first that I managed to stop smoking which kept my mood on a high (well most of the time) but after about 6 weeks I started to feel down. I had put on weight, didnt feel any healthier and was losing interest in life and everyone around me. I couldnt stop thinking about fags and I got so tired mentally of having the little argument with myself - just have a fag and you will feel great - no dont have a fag you wont feel any better, well you know the story.
Anyway eventually I gave in to the little devil and I should have listened to the angel instead.
Well was that a big mistake or what!
Since smoking again, I feel terrible. I was having problems with the circulation in my legs before the last quit and after one day they started back again. I feel sick in my stomach, have a constant headache, my gums have started bleeding, my throat is sore and I have started coughing again, my back is constantly hurting etc etc
I now realise that it is not a choice to give up - I HAVE TO!
I am really dreading tomorrow, going through that first three days again - oh why did I start again. I didnt post the last time because I felt invincible at first but I read all of your posts which really helped me. I have decided that maybe posting on here will be a bit of therapy for me and keep me going.
Good luck to everyone else who are fighting the big fight and here goes. I will post tomorrow and let you know how day 1 is going.
Oh and forgot to say I have smoked for 20 years or so and smoked 20 a day. Had quite a few attempts and tried the inhalator and patches before but found that cold turkey worked quite well until last Thursday.
Anyway there will be no room for anyone else to post if I keep on droning on so I will be back tomorrow - wish me luck!