ten months in.... and it all went wrong

[nsd_user663_2811]

What happened to me today??:mad:

Ten months in, never even looked back for a moment and all of a sudden I HAD TO HAVE A CIGARETTE - so I did.

Hope I can put this behind me, it's a real blow when something like this hits you right out of the blue after so long. I feel like (a) complete sh1t

[NicFirth 10 Years Smoke Free]

It just goes to show that there is no cure for this addiction only management.

Well sh1t happens and you can't change the past.

You feel bad about it, you know it didn't make anything better, learn from the "experience" and don't repeat it.

Get back on the straight and narrow, NOW!

Best wishes.

Nic

[nsd_user663_2524]

Steve, please do not feel so bad about yourself. I am currently into my 11th month, and l could have caved SO easily during the 8,9 10. and up to now, month 11. I don't know why this happens, except to say, that by now our defences are down, and the craves can creep up on us, so unexpectantly, and stupidly, we think that we can have "just the one", and go back tomorrow to being a non smoker.

The good thing is though Steve, provided you get straight back on the wagon, l don't think any real harm has been done.

It is a cautionary tale for all of us - never, ever let your guard down.

Love Josie XXX

[nsd_user663_2892]

Interesting, as I have noticed that, at almost 9 months quit, I am now thinking about cigarettes more often than I was, say at 6months quit.

But I can honestly, hand on heart, say that I have not had a "crave" .

However, this thread will serve as a timely reminder never to let my guard down, or have that first puff.

Steve, I am sure you are strong enough to kick 'Ol Nic* in the butt and put this behind you

*As in the Nicotine Monster and not our own dear NicFirth

[nsd_user663_3633]

I don't know what advice to give you, except "Don't do it again!"... so that will be it....

Don't do it again.

This thread is indeed a big reminder that we must never be complacent.

[Tomatpots 10 Years Smoke Free]

Hi Steve

Why did you smoke?

Try to take some encouragement from the fact that you had stopped for 10 months.

Get yourself on here more often to help yourself give it up for good

[nsd_user663_3029]

Hey Steve

As long as it was just the one and you've not fallen back into the addiction trap, it seems to be that no major harm has been done.

I'm curious though: did you enjoy it? In recent days I've found myself REALLY hating the smell of ciggies and smokers I encounter on the streets or on public transport. Until fairly recently, I was still enjoying the odd whiff of passive smoking but now I've gone right off. I suspect that if I were to take a puff, I'd cough up my guts and hate every instant.

That doens't mean that I've had several moments of weakness though - I've been working a lot with a guy who smokes rollups around me and I've been finding the concept rather than the experience of smoking very enticing. I did have the presence of mind to tell him that under no circumstances is he to give in to me if I ever have a moment of weakness and ask him to share! I've not actually asked, but I've come very, very close!

So practical advice - just stay away from fags and people smoking them, if you can!

[PrudencePotts]

Steve, I am sorry that you have caved. However, I am sure you're not alone. I'm about 6 days away from the year but there isn't a day goes by when I don't think about smoking.

Some people seem to be able to forget all about smoking but others (like me) seem to have it forever in the forefront of their minds. I don't want to smoke again because I like the freedom and benefits of being a non-smoker.

Don't castigate yourself too much. After all, despite what it might seem like on here sometimes, it is your quit and only you can do it (or not!!)

I'm certain you'll pick yourself up and start afresh. All the best

Pru