13 Cigarettes and I feel Grrrrrreat !!!!!

Hi Guys and Gals,

I've been in a strange place since Saturday. I decided to really clean out the car, and guess what I found? Yip, a pack of cigarettes with 13 still in it. Lucky for some, eh? In the olden days, I would have whoop whooped at such a find, but my initial reaction was one of disappointment. I was doing soooo well with my quit, and Ol' Nic had played a blinder on me. Sent me a supply of my old "friends".

I was going to come on the forum and post, but I knew what you'd all tell me... "Get rid and get rid NOW!" :oSo I put them back where I found them, thinking I'd decide what to do about them later. I actually forgot all about them until Monday, when I was having a really stressful day at work. "Sod all this!" I thought "I'm just gonna have one of those ciggies when I get home!!!!:mad:" Of course by the time I got home, the moment had passed, and the pack remained untouched. I've been up and down all week. I'd lie in bed at night thinking "Shit, Barbara, just put them in the bin!" Then at work again the next day, I'd be convinced I was going to smoke "just one!"

Tonight was crunch time. Hubby goes out Wednesdays and its just me and my dogs. I brought the pack in from the car, opened it, took out a cigarette and put it between my lips (how alien did THAT feel???). I got the lighter and even sparked it.............

Then I thought "What the hell am I doing????? I don't even WANT this cigarette!!!! I do NOT want to be smoker!!!!!" I remembered the quitsmokingonline website (thanks Antifag! :)) I took that cigarette and gently tore it apart. I moved the strands of tobacco and bit of paper around the ashtray and laughed!!!!! THIS is what I've been shackled to for 30 years!!! How INSANE!!!!!!! The next cigarette was taken from the pack and ripped to shreds with great enthusiasm! The next one was drowned under a running tap, I took the scissors to one....I was on a roll....a woman possessed as I took a handful and ripped them to shreds. 13 cigarettes and I killed them all - I had definitely won this battle. Ha! Ha! Ol' Nic thought he had me this time - but did I show him or what???

I am now celebrating with a choc ice - sod the diet - I'll attack the Fat Monster later, cos I know I can do whatever I set my mind to do - I have my life back! :)

I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 42 seconds (51 days). I have saved £259.71 by not smoking 1,038 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 14 hours and 30 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00

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  • Absolutely FANTASTIC Barbara

    what a VICTORY

    CONGRATULATIONS

    YOU DID IT

  • Good for you Barb. You're right. You DON'T want any of those disgusting sticks. We're done with those. No more! Be angry at the horrible things. I'm so disgusted that I smoked for all those years urrghhh

    Hope you had fun killing the lil buggers! Makes a change from them killing YOU doesn't it? :D

  • Hope you had fun killing the lil buggers! Makes a change from them killing YOU doesn't it? :D

    It was BRILLIANT fun. :D When I open my own Stop Smoking Clinic I'm going to recommend it all the newbies lol ! ;)

    And how true the little b's were killing me all those years! :eek:

    Revenge is sweet!

    I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 23 hours, 48 minutes and 8 seconds (51 days). I have saved £259.95 by not smoking 1,039 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 14 hours and 35 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00

  • AMAZING

    Hi Barbara,

    So so pleased for you - reckon that you've killed the monster once

    and for all - what a star;) think that was your moment of

    revelation (as in AC's books)?

    I know my partner has a pack so I don't send him down

    the garage at midnight again like I did couple weeks

    ago when I slipped off the wagon!!:mad: In the past I'd have

    torn the house down knowing they were here somewhere

    but now, even though I'm having a BAD BAD few days, I know

    I wont look for them..gawd knows why, but I won't..:D:D

    well done you

    nicky

  • Tear the house down looking!

    Hello Nicky,

    I am lizzie i am new on here, i give up today 10/04/08 i had to reply to your message cause that is what i am like, I am fine for a couple of days then i get a real pang for one a real pang that lasts for like 2 hours! and one time i had the tobacco but no papers or filters and was looking and looking for hours for papers then it came to me, two years earlier i cut into half a packet of papers to keep my curtain pole up! so i got em out it was about 2cm long this ciggarette! but man! i had to have it! how bad is that! lol, but i know if i can get through the last nicorette pang the one that lasts for hours i dont seem to get them anymore but on my last couple of attempts it has got me, i get sooo disapointed in myself. But i shall succeed this time! yeah lol. But my goodness you did really well and are doing really well. Well done, i hope i can do as well as you. bye for now

    lizzie

  • Hi Lizzie,

    Sorry, but I had to laugh at the thought of your teeny weeny 2cm long ciggie!!!!!:D But we all know exactly where you are coming from.

    The difference for me this time is:

    a/ Champix

    b/ This forum

    c/ Alan Carr, Andy Marshall and quitsmokingonline.com and various other websites

    I really believe I have "seen the light" (lol) this time though, and it can be just the same for you. Good luck Lizzie and keep posting! :)

    I have been quit for 1 Month, 3 Weeks, 9 hours, 27 minutes and 58 seconds (52 days). I have saved £261.96 by not smoking 1,047 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 15 hours and 15 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00

  • hey barb

    bloody hell girl, that took some doin, massive well done xx

    jojo

    my quit keeper is playing up but.......100 days today yay

  • Well done Barbara - rofl at images of the ciggie massacre. Go get em girl.

    Lizzy - welcome to the forum and good luck with you quit.x

  • Hi Guys and Gals,

    I've been in a strange place since Saturday. I decided to really clean out the car, and guess what I found? Yip, a pack of cigarettes with 13 still in it. Lucky for some, eh? In the olden days, I would have whoop whooped at such a find, but my initial reaction was one of disappointment. I was doing soooo well with my quit, and Ol' Nic had played a blinder on me. Sent me a supply of my old "friends".

    I was going to come on the forum and post, but I knew what you'd all tell me... "Get rid and get rid NOW!" :oSo I put them back where I found them, thinking I'd decide what to do about them later. I actually forgot all about them until Monday, when I was having a really stressful day at work. "Sod all this!" I thought "I'm just gonna have one of those ciggies when I get home!!!!:mad:" Of course by the time I got home, the moment had passed, and the pack remained untouched. I've been up and down all week. I'd lie in bed at night thinking "Shit, Barbara, just put them in the bin!" Then at work again the next day, I'd be convinced I was going to smoke "just one!"

    Tonight was crunch time. Hubby goes out Wednesdays and its just me and my dogs. I brought the pack in from the car, opened it, took out a cigarette and put it between my lips (how alien did THAT feel???). I got the lighter and even sparked it.............

    Then I thought "What the hell am I doing????? I don't even WANT this cigarette!!!! I do NOT want to be smoker!!!!!" I remembered the quitsmokingonline website (thanks Antifag! :)) I took that cigarette and gently tore it apart. I moved the strands of tobacco and bit of paper around the ashtray and laughed!!!!! THIS is what I've been shackled to for 30 years!!! How INSANE!!!!!!! The next cigarette was taken from the pack and ripped to shreds with great enthusiasm! The next one was drowned under a running tap, I took the scissors to one....I was on a roll....a woman possessed as I took a handful and ripped them to shreds. 13 cigarettes and I killed them all - I had definitely won this battle. Ha! Ha! Ol' Nic thought he had me this time - but did I show him or what???

    I am now celebrating with a choc ice - sod the diet - I'll attack the Fat Monster later, cos I know I can do whatever I set my mind to do - I have my life back! :)

    I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 42 seconds (51 days). I have saved £259.71 by not smoking 1,038 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 14 hours and 30 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00

    what a totally inspirational post

    and what a totally inspirational person you are

    your post made my hold my breath and then i laughed at your ciggie killing antics

    you are so so right about being stuck them all those years, you are free, make sure you stay that way

    you are such a star

    well done

  • welcome lizzie,

    congratulations on your decision to quit today, the

    most difficult part:D

    hope it goes well for you this time, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

    look forward to hearing how things go:)

    nicky x

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