Hi Guys and Gals,
I've been in a strange place since Saturday. I decided to really clean out the car, and guess what I found? Yip, a pack of cigarettes with 13 still in it. Lucky for some, eh? In the olden days, I would have whoop whooped at such a find, but my initial reaction was one of disappointment. I was doing soooo well with my quit, and Ol' Nic had played a blinder on me. Sent me a supply of my old "friends".
I was going to come on the forum and post, but I knew what you'd all tell me... "Get rid and get rid NOW!" :oSo I put them back where I found them, thinking I'd decide what to do about them later. I actually forgot all about them until Monday, when I was having a really stressful day at work. "Sod all this!" I thought "I'm just gonna have one of those ciggies when I get home!!!!:mad:" Of course by the time I got home, the moment had passed, and the pack remained untouched. I've been up and down all week. I'd lie in bed at night thinking "Shit, Barbara, just put them in the bin!" Then at work again the next day, I'd be convinced I was going to smoke "just one!"
Tonight was crunch time. Hubby goes out Wednesdays and its just me and my dogs. I brought the pack in from the car, opened it, took out a cigarette and put it between my lips (how alien did THAT feel???). I got the lighter and even sparked it.............
Then I thought "What the hell am I doing????? I don't even WANT this cigarette!!!! I do NOT want to be smoker!!!!!" I remembered the quitsmokingonline website (thanks Antifag! :)) I took that cigarette and gently tore it apart. I moved the strands of tobacco and bit of paper around the ashtray and laughed!!!!! THIS is what I've been shackled to for 30 years!!! How INSANE!!!!!!! The next cigarette was taken from the pack and ripped to shreds with great enthusiasm! The next one was drowned under a running tap, I took the scissors to one....I was on a roll....a woman possessed as I took a handful and ripped them to shreds. 13 cigarettes and I killed them all - I had definitely won this battle. Ha! Ha! Ol' Nic thought he had me this time - but did I show him or what???
I am now celebrating with a choc ice - sod the diet - I'll attack the Fat Monster later, cos I know I can do whatever I set my mind to do - I have my life back!
I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 42 seconds (51 days). I have saved Â£259.71 by not smoking 1,038 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 14 hours and 30 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00