No more urge to smoke but still the anger on whom I love for very small reasons is there.I am all aware that I am geting anger for no good reason but still raise my voice at my kid and feel very bad myself for behaving like that.I love my children a lot.They are my motivation to stop smoking but the fact is they don't know what I am undergoing and my kid still asks that 'dad r u not feeling well?'(As when ever I show some anger on him, after some time I go to him and say sorry and that I wasn't well and shouted like that.Then he says its OK.)
On the other hand, on day 3 of smoke free when I told my wife that its my third day,she smiled sarcastically and said tell me after 1 year.That I didn't expect from her.I thought she will praise me.Then as usual we had a row.I said that I shouldn't have told to you and I never expected any support or anything from you for which she was very upset and says that you don't want to share things with ur wife, u say that u don't get support from me then go to them who supports you this n that n bla bla bla......
Then on day 4 she says so is it fourth day?I said how that does matter.No its not 4th I smoked I said for which again she had a discussion that you hurt me yesterday saying that u don't expect ne support or nething from me this n that.But I was patient enough and ignored her talk.
Now its 6th day,I didn't had a puff and I am confident on my will power now that I will not go for one as I already crossed those 2 instances.
Feeling fresh in the mornings.
Sorry for boring you all with this stuff.But I can only share everything here as I feel all this is because of no smoking.If I was a smoker I would have smoked and thought about it during my smoking and that's it forget about it.So that's how I felt that everything I shared with my ciggy.Normally I am such a kind of person who never share things a lot.
But no I am not going to smoke again.Trying to being strong.