Medication anxiety

[Eyak1971]

Anyone else had moments where you become overwhelmed with the strict regiment of medication that if you mess up just once, it could be terminal? For 5 years I have consistently followed doctors orders when it comes to medication. I set an alarm on my phone to remind me and faithfully order my medication when needed as well as separate it into my daily pill box each week. Sometimes it becomes so automatic that at times I second guess myself and try desperately to remember each action. Recently I was taking my daily medication and questioned if I had taken my tacro or even put it in the pill box. I just could not remember. I looked at the other days and tacro was there for each day but had I accidentally skipped a day. Should I take an additional dose or trust that I had dispensed my medication correctly. I had a blood draw the next day and my tacro had dropped. Then came the anger toward myself for failing at a simple task and possibly affecting my transplant negatively. I can always choose to do better and learn from my mistakes but these mistakes are not simple or minor when you have had a transplant.

[Bassetmommer]

Did you ever do home hemo dialysis????

[Eyak1971 in reply to Bassetmommer]

No. I did pd for almost 5 years.