I realized I really enjoy writing here. I know what drew me here was the opportunity to have community with others who would understand how I was feeling. I appreciate each one of you who reads my nonsense and gets some reprieve from thinking about or dealing with kidney disease. I'm happy the holiday is almost here, its always bittersweet thinking of those you love who are no longer here but also remembering to cherish those who are. I'm calling myself Queen of Dough because I'm hopeful that at my first and a half attempt at making dinner rolls from scratch with yeast and a double rising effort my rolls will be sky high 😜 I have to admit an attempt way back but it was a joint effort that ended in inedible muffin rocks. Truth be told I barely remember the baking event, but I do remember not being asked to make them again. I know my way around a kitchen but this venture takes talent so I'm hoping I can find or borrow some baking expert level help.
On another note, I received a letter today stating that I am actively listed. I was shocked because not too many weeks ago I was told I was listed but inactively so. And that until I got at least one surgery done I wouldn't be actively listed. The up downs, and arounds of this process are nothing anyone can prepare you for. I'm blessed and thankful to be actively listed. I'm very happy about it, but to be honest I'm afraid to be too happy. I know that sounds silly, but I don't want to have my hopes dashed and be devastated.
The rolls don't just represent my love for time in the kitchen, but they also are representative of the highs and lows that we can experience during this journey in life. Life slowly reaches highs and lows and does it all again. I liken it to how your rolls begin low as round dough balls, then they rise and you punch it and it goes low again then for it's final time rises and bakes. All the while lots of time passes, so though the actions of rising and falling of dough are way too simplistic to compare to kidney disease, I want to be the dough girl who appreciates the rise and fall of the journey when I put my rolls in the oven this Thanksgiving and become happy at what I've made. Pray for me... ❤️
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You're actively listed! What a wonderful Thanksgiving Day for you! And I sure those rolls you intend to make will make your day too. Your positivity is inspirational!
Forget the rolls for now. OMG you're on the active list,👍🥳🤞🌞 How wonderful is that! WOW..Its happening. The rolls will be fine. I never made rolls from scratch. My Thanksgiving rolls were crescent roll dough spread out, topped with cinnamon, raisins, and almond slivers rolled up and brushed with melted butter and baked. I never had the heart to tell others that they weren't from scratch. Then, i got embarrassed when they asked for the recipe!
Have a marvelous holiday and I'm quietly rejoicing here over you being actively listed.
HRM, I so enjoy your writing and I hope you pursue this someday professionally. You have a way with words.
Making bread is a love of mine. The first time I made yeast bread you could use it as a door stop. It is so temperamental. I found tricks such as how to keep it warm but not hot when rising and to temper the yeast and sugar and make sure they are at 110 degrees. A thermometer is necessary. But it took me years to get good at it. The biggest lesson is patience and just the right timing. Too much rising and it is yeasty tasting and not good and too little and it is a tough. Sort of like life.
Congratulations on being listed. I supposedly am not listed but accruing time even though. I doubt I will ever get cleared to be short listed. Too old, too fat and they have to run a test with die that will absolutely kill whatever kidney function I have. Supposedly they will do it when I am on dialysis. It is for a tiny possible blockage in my heart. It if infuriating, actually but I am trying to not let it get to me.
Have fun with the bread. Kneading is a great way to get frustrations out. I use a big mixer, but I still do 10 minutes by hand. Good luck and let us know how it rolled......( get it?)
Congrats and welcome to the rock hard rolls club...lol. First time I tried to make them I used baking powder instead of baking soda (or vice versa)...they were awful. Don't want to mention the time I tried to cook a whole chicken.
I'll have to add my funny Thanksgiving story, too! We had invited my brother for Thanksgiving dinner and when he tasted my chocolate cream pie he said "this is the worst chocolate cream pie I've ever tasted!" I gasped and said that it was the last pie we made the night before and I forgot to bake the crust before putting in the pie filling! We laugh about it every year!
Congratulations about getting on the active list! Didn't I tell you things would work out?! Happy Thanksgiving!
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