I'm in the process of scheduling my fistula surgery. It brought up some emotions, none greater than sadness. I'm trying not to be too upset and be thankful that this procedure exists. I will be getting it in April in the elbow area, if that's the correct terminology for the place.
I guess I felt sadness because it's the first step in such a major change in my life and I'm a little scared. I have a great support group of family and friends but fear still creeps up from time to time. This is all so overwhelming and hard to wrap my head around. I guess I won't know how I will feel until I begin dialysis, but for now I'm trying to education myself and stay positive.
On another note I will be going to the transplant center for evaluating. My dad wants to see if he can donate to me. I doubt that will work out, but I love him for being so determined to make it work. I'm wondering what all will be done for 6 hours, but I am learning I need to be more inquisitive when I have the opportunity to ask.