I am in my early 40s and started dialysis this year. I was diagnosed with CKD 20 years ago when I was in college and have been on BP meds for the last 10 yr.
CKD affected my life since I was first diagnosed in college. There’s always an urgency to live life at fullest. It is scary with the uncertainty yet it has been a great motivator.
I want to share an experience this year. I had my catheter surgery this summer. And shortly after, I started PD dialysis training. Through the training, there is a lot of emphasis on infection prevention and proper diet. Complications from improper management of these can be deadly. In short, there were so many things to worry about. It was quite a stressful time for me and my family who was trying to provide the best care they can.
One day, at end of training, we walked out of clinic and started driving home. A car came out of the blue and T-boned us at the intersection, close to the passenger seat where I was sitting. I could have DIEd that day if it was just a fraction of a seconds later. Good thing it hit more of the front of the car then me the passenger.
That experience made me realize, that’s only so much we can control. Any day can be our last. There are too many things we cannot control and worrying about whether every day / month / year might be the last is counterproductive. You can only try to do you best with each day u have and cherish it. It might well be not the CKD that kills me but something else.