I really need moral support right now. I just finished a month of prednisone I.V 3000mg and prednisone pills for one month. I start chemotherapy treatment on Wednesday in pill form. I am so sick this month. The past week no sleep at all. My nephrologist recommended Melatonin. Right now I've had such a bad cough and have been coughing up blood clots for days. I can't breathe anymore at all. I'm so sick. I am so suicidal I just want to end this ungodly disease from Hell and my life. My nephrologist said I won't feel any stronger or better for at least 5 months..I can't do this anymore. When do you feel better mentally and physically. I am a strong person normally. This kidney disease has beat me to the ground. When does it get better? Please help me. I need to make these harsh treatments worthwhile. Thank you! Any advice would be appreciated.