Well, after two years, my wife and I got the call...she's a match for me and the transplant committee has approved us for surgery! It's all happening very fast too. I never in a million years thought this would happen. I've felt to bad for so long, I don't remember what it was like to feel good. I also don't remember what it was like to be...well, me. We're both excited and scared. I did feel a tremendous sense of guilt though. Like I wasn't worth it, this amazing sacrifice she's willing to make for me. Now all I have to do is live through it, and not reject the kidney!
I'm always exhausted, weak and aching. I have to run everything I say through my mind first to make sure I can remember all the names and words I want to say. Most of the time I can't. I have one kidney working at 17%. I work full-time, serve on two nonprofit boards, do volunteer work and I'm an active Rotarian. My doctor's and friends don't know how I'm doing it...neither do I. I just keep thinking about the other guy. I know that on the other side of all of this there's another guy. And he will be stronger, faster, sharper and have more energy. And, he'll have gone through all of this. Other than that, I don't know what he'll be like because I've forgotten what I'm like. I just hope he shows up soon because I'm tired. I hope he knows that I did my best.