Hi there - I'm new here so thought I'd introduce myself
I'm 44 years old, 5ft 8 and weigh 20st.
My whole life I've been a serial dieter. I think I must have tried every diet out there pretty much. I often do really well on them - losing 4 or 5 stone - but then something will trip me up and I'll be back to square one and ending up higher in weight than I started! I know it's a lot to do with my head. No matter how much I lose I struggle to 'like myself' and also turn to food in any/all moments of anxiety not really noticing what I eat just stuffing and stuffing until I stop feeling whatever I'm feeling.
I'm married with two young and very active kids and I'm pretty active too. I used to run (which I loved) until I knackered my Achilles' tendons so it's walking I stick to now - really doesn't have the same effect for me though.
I'm feeling pretty desperate to loose weight if I'm honest but more importantly I'm desperate to stop having such an awful relationship with food. I know completely what a healthy diet is but find it difficult to control my need for bread, cheese and butter when I'm I'm feeling low (half a loaf of bread, half a tub of butter and half a block of cheese would not be unheard of when I'm in a hating me moment, which are pretty cyclical - hate me, eat loads, hate me more for eating loads, eat loads more etc etc).
Anyway enough of that! I want to change my story. I don't want to be the fat one anymore. I want to feel happy riding a bike and a horse again, happy to by clothes, happy to eat in public and be there for my kids as they grow and I'm hoping this place can help me work out how to get there
Lots of love