Good Morning my beloved Relapsing-Remitting ms (RRms) family. As always I hope last night was restful and that today is full of contentment. It may hurt at times but that means “YOU” are alive. Take the good with the bad, make your own good and make it very good.
New to the family I am so sorry “YOU” had to join, but “YOU” are human and this is a human condition. No more no less. It happens to us, I have never learnt of a better reason why. So go with that theory I feel it might be easier to handle emotionally. “YOU” did nothing wrong to deserve this, “YOU” are not being punished for some crime that “YOU” do not remember committing. “YOU” are not at fault, this is not your fault. Somebody had to get ms and “YOU” are better able to handle it and live with it than most. Somebody had to get it, would “YOU” rather it was a sibling or a close relative. NO, I thought not, though I will admit some nights when my face is being stabbed with an ice pick for hours, I wish it was anybody else but me. Okay, that is a moment of weakness, usually, I just overdose on opioids. which I have done several times. That hurts nobody but me, even if it does scare she who must be obeyed and her Aunt. Do “YOU” see we ALL have moments of weakness, we do really dumb things. It is okay, it does not make you weak, mean that “YOU” are giving up. It means nothing, it is part of the human condition. Very few of us are perfect men or women of stone. Apply enough pressure and even stone crumbles. Or maybe, just maybe it changes. Over the years it toughens, changes into a diamond. A thing of beauty and hardness. Could this be “YOU”? Could “YOU” over your years change from a scared hurt human being into ??? something else. I do not know what, it is your choice, what do “YOU” choose? Beautiful butterflies were once ugly worms and they change, into butterflies of beauty, Why do “YOU” not change yourself. Perhaps not a butterfly, but something so much more than the outside world expect t “YOU” to be.
Come out of that cold dark pit that we are in when first diagnosed (Dx’d). Take your time, find your feet again and build yourself UP into something so much more than “YOU” thought “YOU” could ever be. This is RRms, there will be setbacks, obstacles and trials along your journey. Any great story has trials that the hero must overcome. This is your story, your great journey. There WILL be obstacles, setbacks. This is RRms, it is a progressive disease. Make the choice and do what “YOU” have to do to live your best life possible despite of it. This ms life does not have to be ass bad as is said.
I would suggest your first move would be to take the strongest Disease-Modifying Therapy (DMT) that “YOU” can legally get. Take it, and never stop. Give yourself time what to do next will come.
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Royce (your ms writer and Brother)
next steps, diet. exercise plan, emotional plan. YOU CAN do this believe in yourself it does not have to be as bad as you fear. Choose a better ms life for yourself
