G’day my ms family. This disease is a lot to bear sometimes. Okay, a lot of the time. I find it very hard in Summertime. Like most people with my disease, I find summer very hard. Long ago I used to be excited watching the morning aviation weather and thinking about how lucky the pilots in Arizona were. Getting warmth and sunshine as I still shivered in Atlanta. How nice it must be, Now I am in Arizona I dread the moths stuck inside my house because of the heat. I can not even go for a drive because everywhere is hot. I still do but the driver still complains because I have the air far too low. I think 70F is a good temp but others disagree.
The tensions around the world are certainly no help. It really stresses me that I can do nothing about it, merely be a victim of the waves crashing against the civilized shores of the world
. It is a lot like ms. I am a victim. As are “YOU”. There is nothing that I can do to stop it. I can not make it go away. I do not even know where it came from, what did I do. NOTHING, it just is. It happened to “US”. it is now time to live with it. Be frustrated, angry. At times despondent, but always to live with it
I will not surrender, I will not cave in and hideaway in a cold dark hole. NO, I will not live my years like this. I have many years ahead of, as do “YOU” I may never again be able to bask in the bright sunlight. I may forever be trapped in the twilight of my ms dungeon, but I CAN accept this. I WILL make a life for myself here. Sometimes I may wander closer to the light, but I am fasted to always retreat back into my dim shadows. This is my lot in this life and I mostly accept it. “YOU” might as well.
I believe I will try to make what I can around my bright and fresh. There is no reason to retreat totally into the gloom of this illness. Try to make your surroundings bright. Give your knitting bright colours. Make your life bright and hopeful. This disease creates every advantage that it can to drag “YOU” into that gloom and sadness of despise, weakness and fear. There is a better way, there is a way to thwart it.
Know technically what ms is doing to your mind and body. If “YOU” are willing to know this “YOU” will Know what is happening to to your body. Know what is happening and perhaps “YOU” can find away around it/, if even just a little. Find a little way to thwart it and “YOU” give yourself some advantage. “YOU” are fighting back, even if it is just a little, “YOU” are taking back a little control. Do not be disheartened by setbacks, ms is a wily and cunning enemy, but “YOU” are a homo Sapiens. This is a game that “YOU” can play and play very well. There is no reason to surrender and give up. “YOU” can adapt, find new ways forward. Accept setbacks and never give up. “YOU” are much better than a mere disease. MS bit off more than it can chew when it bit “YOU”. I bite-sized morsel, “YOU” are NOT.
Within “YOU” there is a strength. A fire that is growing stronger by the moment. Feed it, make it a massive firestorm. Let “YOU” be seen from space, be a light that others can follow. that they can warm themselves around, be that beacon of hope and strength that somebody else may need. “YOU” can because “YOU are “YOU” and “YOU are strength. Thank you for being “YOU”.
Royce (your ms writer)
I see your light
