Isolation loneliness chronic illness abandonment desertion , it is us. I am sure that “YOU” could find more words, but “YOU” get the picture. Early on this strikes “YOU” not everybody but a lot of us. Personally I do not think I have anybody beside she who must be obeyed and my dearest Mother and my seventy year old fiend down the street, who have really been there for me and with me over the years. It really shows how a wide circle of friends are not so much friends but acquaintances. Perhaps this is the society we live in. We are all disposable, when something better comes along the old or broken is discarded. Go look in your wardrobe and look at the clothes that “YOU” do not wear anymore.
We all have feelings, we are a social species. For a lot of us isolation is not easy and is quite painful. I might suggest that “YOU” start to become very comfortable with the one Homo Sapien that is guaranteed to spend every moment of every day with “YOU”, guess who? Worked it out yet? Go look in the mirror. That smiling face with the crazy hair looking at “YOU” is the one person guaranteed to never leave “YOU” Start making friends with that person. There is no need to be selfish and cruel to others, but “YOU” have to make friends with yourself. Give yourself every opportunity to succeed, every tool that “YOU” can find to make your long Relapsing Remitting ms(RRMS life worthwhile purposeful and joyus. Become comfortable with yourself, be at ease with your abilities and inabilities. Try to achieve a goal and when “YOU” fail look around for another way to get what “YOU want and need.
Find the value in yourself. Do not be upset if it takes “YOU” more than a day to find your own worth. It took me twenty years to find mine. I think I might have missed a few opportunities over the years. They were there I just did not see them, maybe I should have looked harder or maybe I was just not ready for them but they were there, as is yours I am sure. There is a purpose to all this suffering and disappointment with this incurable lifelong disease that we all have.
Do not despair not every answer comes in the first few days. Yes, there are certainly things that “YOU” can do to make things easier for “YOU”, in the same token there are things that “YOU” can do to make things much harder.
We all make mistakes, it is human nature. Try not to make them to disastrous that :YOU” can not get over them.
Royce (the tortured writer)
Be gentle with yourself learn to be at ease with yourself
