Just because you(the world) say I am chronically disabled should, be unseen and certainly not heard I am NOT now or ever going to do it. I am going to fail once twice three times at doing something but I am going to pick myself up, brush the dust off my cheeks. I am going to square my shoulders look straight ahead and do it again and again until I get it. Tomorrow I may fail at it again but I know I did it yesterday I just need to find that strength again and do it. Within me I know I can and I will. Relapsing remitting ms (RRms) does not control me. It hampers me, slows me but it does not decide what I can and nan not do. I and I alone decide that.
At first that saying “I have ms, but it does bot have me” was something that I disliked and thought was rather silly. As the years have gone by it seems to be resonating more. I have RRms but I am not a prisoner or a victim of it. I am not a warrior, I do not fight against it. Constantly in a never ending battle. I pay attention to myself, my bodies reaction to stimuli and behave accordingly. I know what I can do what I can not. I think logically through my fears and behave accordingly. I have a good idea of what I can do, what I can not and most importantly what I should not. The should nots are still done but I am aware of the consequences. I am a fifty year old man of course I do dumb things, men do that, ego and everything, but I do not fear the consequences. I have learned to embrace my weaknesses, my many foibles. It does take time and a lot of patience, some degree of humility as well. Skills my ego at twenty nine never said I would have, but one step at a time over years and years I gained. This ms life has become easier.
Not easy or simple, I still have my fears, but I understand them and are at ease with them. It does take time and patience. Rome was not built in a day and neither was the new me or the new improved YOU”, for I am improved just a different type of improvement. “YOU” have the opportunity to recreate yourself in a way that “YOU” will be astonished by. The best thing of course is that the “YOU” today need not be the “YOU” tomorrow. Accept this and embrace it. Do not look at RRms as the end of any dream, look at it as a door opening into a wide different world of new adventures. It may be embarrassing or hurt but just think, how am I going to get past this?
Where “YOU” read I change that into you, not me. These are all things that “YOU” may face and overcome and CAN do. The strength is within “YOU” I just remind “YOU” of it in case “YOU forgot.
Royce
RRms you can you will you do it well, with a smile on your face
Because I just had to! 🤣
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