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[Summer75]

Hi, my son aged 16 has moderate OCD self harm. Since May we have had three trips to hospital.I'm on edge and my heart races all the time. It's like Ican't relax since these last self harm trips...I suspect I have undiagnosed OCD but I have had a busy time with my son, and other children and haven't looked into myself.

I have an eight year old girl I homeschool also because of her anxiety. I've just got her a referral to a phycologist so that's positive. She has separation anxiety.

She got terrible nightmares when at school that I would get murdered etc.

She became worse until I homeschooled.

My son is doing well and we have some specialist exposure therapy coming up.

We are first on the weight list. He is under a team of specialists for two years now. His troubles started with separation anxiety at age four.

He has 2e as he is very smart.

I suspect I have OCD as I had anorexia and bulemia as a child/adolescent and then false memories for twelve years as an adult. The false memories were horrendous...I thought/believed I murdered someone at age four while in a satanic occult group.

I only ever have counsellors tell me I must have had abuse and to dreg it up....this is partly how I developed false memories. I struggle with perspective of whether I have been unkind or mean, failed people etc. I remember this started aged seven punching myself saying "I hate you"

I have a strong Christian faith which helps me immensely. I'm not on any medicine as yet...just supplements.

Anyway that's me, I live in semi rural NZ