This coronavirus lockdown definitely takes a toll on health. In every way.

[Ubud2021]

Hello. I am new here to the OCD community. I posted this on anxiety/depression, and felt like we all could use some inspiration here, today.

It seems like we are all struggling. Many ways the same, similar, or completely different. But the toll it’s taking on our mental health, physical health, and/or spiritual health (whatever spiritual health means for you) seems to be happening to all of us. For me, it’s all of the above. I’m staying “back at home” for a little bit, maybe until the lockdowns have ended, or maybe even until I start to feel stronger. I’ve had a past 2 crazy years. But 2020 is just the sprinkles on top of it all!

Staying “back at home” for me, means staying with my amazing and personal hero -my grandmother, my cool and funny brother, and my mother who is taking care of everyone. But, me and my mom just don’t quite...”mesh” together well. When I moved out on my own, is when my relationship with my mom started to feel a little bit more healthy. We are both very strong headed people. So, we tend to get in a lot of arguments. Which, unfortunately has been happening a lot lately... I have a lot of past anger and resentment towards her, (and recent anger) that I just can’t seem to let go of. I know it’s best to forgive, but, I’ve been trying for years to forgive her. I just can’t. I know that holding onto anger is only hurting myself. But like I said, I just can’t seem to let things go.

Although I am not in an abusive household, my heart goes out to those of you who are. I’ve been just fighting with my mom a few times a day, and have major health issues, and mental issues, and with just that, I feel so alone.

My message box is always open. For ANYONE who is in need of venting. Because I know how this pandemic is making ME feel, and I see that there are a lot of other people feeling like they’re going crazy as well. I’m right there with you. Anxiety is higher, along with depression. My OCD thoughts are also taking control of me because I have all the time in the world to just think.

Let’s just be here. In the moment. And be nice to one another. We never know what people are going through. But, this craziness will end someday. Brighter days are ahead. Do what makes your soul happy. Even if it means, bringing that activity to your living room.

Stay safe out there 💕