Don’t wanna give up.

[dbeck128]

Hi all, I just wanted a little reassurance with what I’m going through. It helps to know I’m not the only one.

About mid day- early evening my anxiety starts.

I feel scattered brain, can’t think, brain feels dead, hard to process anything.

I get panicky. That I’m going to lose control & my thoughts will consume me and make me do things I don’t wanna do.

I start thinking if I think these thoughts it’s really me and sometimes I don’t even feel bad for thinking about them, which eventually gets on my nerves and will panic occasionally.

I feel like I’m going insane, and I get a sick feeling in my stomach.

Normal? How do you cope? Is there hope? Good meds you’ve had a good experience with? Will this depression and anxiety consume me, or will it get better?

[Autumnsa]

Dbeck128 i can totally relate to what your going through. I couldn't focus, my mind raced, i constantly thought i was going to lose my mind and my thoughts would consume me. I dealt with it for 2 years before ever seeking help, or even telling my family. I suffer from anxiety/depression/panic. Ive been on meds now for 4 years and it honestly saved my life. Your not alone here. Ask me anything you need to.

[dbeck128 in reply to Autumnsa]

If you don’t mind me asking, what is a good medication? I take Lamtical, because my mood swings were getting so bad I couldn’t function. Sure it’s helping but I’m still depressed and OH SO anxious. I can’t take antidepressants because I don’t respond well to them, and they make me worse off.

[MyOCD123]

Unfortunately, this is all normal for OCD sufferers. When my OCD was at its worse I couldn’t focus on the smallest task. Getting through the work day was agonizing and sometimes I would just stare at my computer screen so I could look busy. The fear of losing control and doing things you don’t want to (for example, harming someone) is a very common obsession. I struggle with this, as do many others in this community. Lately the thoughts haven’t been scaring me as much and I feel like a terrible person for it and over analyze why I’m no longer afraid of recent themes. I know it’s painful, and agonizing, and brutal. This is the reality of OCD that so many don’t understand. You are not going insane. You just have OCD, and OCD’s favorite thing to do is lie. It likes to scare you and trap you in a cage so that your life will become smaller. It will go after everything you love and care about. It can be relentless, but there is so much hope. I am inching closer to recovery each day. A few months ago I was begging my mom to hospitalize me. Now I’m able to live my life again and do the things OCD told me I can’t. Medication does certainly help. I am on Sertraline and Klonopin and have had great success with both of those. But medication can only do so much. The only proven way to effectively treat OCD is with ERP. Please make sure that if/when you seek help from a therapist that they specialize in OCD and ERP. The iocdf.org has a page where you can locate the nearest specialist. Hang in there and don’t stop fighting! We can’t give OCD what it wants. You will get through this, I promise. I’m always here to talk if you ever need anything.

[dbeck128 in reply to MyOCD123]

Your reply has really inspired me and made me believe one day my life won’t be a living hell. Thankyou ❤️

[MyOCD123 in reply to dbeck128]

I’m glad I could offer you some hope! This community is what keeps me going. 💖

[Autumnsa in reply to dbeck128]

MYOCD123 gave a great response!