Struggling

[Shelbe77]

Well it’s a new year and I am praying it’s a better one than last year 🤞🤞🤞

This was my first Christmas after mine fertility journey has ended, and I’ve really struggled 😪 I just want my own family 💔 I work in Paediatric intensive care, which is hard in many levels, but it’s a large number of female staff I work with and just found out 7 are pregnant 😪😪😪 I just want to curl up, and cry constantly 😪

My partner has a 9 yr old son, who I love and I do get some family time, but he obviously has something I’ll never have, so as much as he wants a family with me, he just doesn’t get my heart break, if I cry, he hugs me, but he just doesn’t know what to do or say. There’s nothing he, or anyone can do or say, 😪😪😪 to help.

I just want to scream or cry, please tell me am not alone in this maddening state.

[IndieBlue]

Hi Shelbe77,

please know that you are not alone.

I completely understand how you feel about pregnant colleagues/friends. I find one of the hardest things is witnessing women blossoming with pregnancy when it is a cruel reminder of what I want so much but will never have. Very few people are able to offer the right words at the right time, and they do not understand the depth of the grief. I have found comfort and support with this site though, and it is one of the only places I have found people who can truly relate to our situation. I hope you are doing ok, please take care and be kind to yourself x