The past week or so I have been feeling a massive sense of emptiness and loneliness. I thought I had managed my expectations for Christmas, but not having children is really too tough. The adverts are all showing families and Facebook is filled with elves of the shelves and trips to Lapland UK. I've got so much time on my hands and nothing to do: work has finished, choir has finished and my husband and i are quite distant since the ivf . It seems everyone else is too busy to even blink nevermind arrange to see me. People just assume you're probably busy but really I spend most evenings at home on my own in front of the tele. I do struggle with depression and it makes me a little reclusive at times. It also means I'm scared to put myself out there too much in case I'm rejected or not wanted. I really need people to encourage me and be proactive but sadly they don't understand that.
I'm sorry to moan on and on but I just needed to get it out my system.
Hope you're all doing better than I am with it all. Love to all xx