Hello everyone,
Not sure where to begin really, I'm partly wondering when people decided to go get help for what ever condition they may be suffering with, at what point did you think "yeah I definitely need help"?
I'm quite an independent person, I don't like going to the Dr's for anything, haven't been there for a few years, since my GP tried to prescribe me a dog to help with serious sleep issues I was having.
I'm the type of guy that just tries to get on with things, until I fall over dead, then just stick me in the ground.
I have never been diagnosed or spoke about the few things that affect me, but over the lockdown things got quite difficult. I had a period when I was having extreme difficulty sleeping, It reduced me to tears, which I try to reserve for sad cartoons only.
The mental toll sleep deprivation had on me nearly broke me. I also have pains in my hands, knees and feet every night, which might be arthritis (runs in the family) or wear and tear from working habits I'm not sure, (which adds to the difficulty getting to sleep)
To top these off I have dealt with anxiety/ mild depression since I was a teenager but never spoke about it to anyone, a couple people have picked up on it but I just shrug It off and say I'm fine, just a bit tired etc. I have dropped below 9 stone with very little appetite too which has me worried.
Having not mentioned these things to my Dr's I feel like they might think I'm exaggerating /hypochondriac or just wanting some kind of pills. This took a lot to write, even now I'm basically thinking whats the point of going to the Dr's.
Sorry for the long post & thanks for reading