Hello all, im mid 40's Male and ive been under cmht for 5 years with a Cpn/Shrink. My Cpn was surposed to visit me on Monday 13th December but never arrived. Since then i called CMHT who said they would email them to call me back. (The ususal covid response of the last 2 years)I called again on the 20th the said they would email again but no reply, then i called Christmas eve and they said thier not at their desk but would call me. Never happened. By now my episode is getting gnarly, Christmas is a bad time for me, Im not getting out, abusing oral morphine for toothache and binge drinking (my EUPD) I need help and information as she had done all my pip paperwork in May 2021 at the beginning of December they said my assesment is 31st December 2021.
Yesterday i tried again to get in touch with CMHT but no answer. I called a different switchboard to see if they were open and a lady from the county office said she could look up my details. To my horror and shock i was told that i had been discharged on Christmas Eve and my cpn has left and sent me a letter.
So now i lost all my support, not sure who i go to about my medication , im on Pregablin, Diazapan and Zopliclone every day and they only give me a weeks worth because i have a history of overdosing.
So i have now already reached a state of catastrophizing and going into suvival mode as all i can see is impending doom. Every time i was handed over or left a service i was always involved in a meeting explaining my crisis plan and stuff like that but to be binned off without even a phone call has destroyed all trust i had in the service that has really helped me. Im feeling pretty low and not sure how im going to react to my assesment as your always set up to fail. At least i have toothache to feel some pain .
Sorry for my rant, don't really have people to talk to so at least i talked to the internet peoples.
Take Care of yourselves X