Drowning

[I_Hate_Me_2]

On days that are hard I manage to just about tread water just keeping above water level but on days that are just too much to bare it feels like I’m drowning. Today...I am drowning 😭

[c-mac]

Do you know any tricks for temporarily lightening the mood? It doesn’t seem like it now, but if you could remember any, they might still work. I have an emergency list of things to try. But honestly, I don’t often think of it. Perhaps every time I write about it I’m more likely to remember it when I need it. I remember I find stand-up comedy on Netflix to lighten my mood. Having a big change in my physical sensations, like a hot bath or even just opening the freezer door sticking my head in for a moment if I’m feeling anxious. And writing in my journal often helps, too.

[Hidden]

I need a chemical boost in my brain when I feel like that.

So I do food, weed, or exercise....mental stimulants sometimes work (the chat platform counts!)

Hang in there and boost your dopamine!

C-mac mentioned comedy! Booster for sure!

[Hidden]

Consider Hobbies and Diversions you enjoy to take your mind of the negative feelings you are having..

You mention Weed, that can cause negative feelings as well so personally you need to discuss your problem with your Doctor/Surgery.

However you could also try Mindfulness, Relaxation Technique you xan purchase a book on it at Amazon, To relax would help me when needed

BOB

[cortez]

Hi, Suicidal85.

I hope you have not drowned yet. I can complete relate to that feeling. I am a very reflective person, so I always look within to work out why I'm feeling a certain way...

May I ask if you know what is troubling you? For me, it can be many things from the past that I haven't address yet, as I'm not ready. It can be many things or people in the present moment that are making me feel guilty, anxious, angry, inadequate and every in the between! It can also be feeling scared of the future, because the future is unknown. Feeling out of control and not being able to control certain things is also very unsettling.

Please talk or express your emotions in a way that benefits you. As I'm sure you know, keeping your worries and anger inside will manifests itself into an explosion. I have learned to open up and I have learned that when I talk about what's upsetting me, I end up feeling lighter, less bitter, less lonely and having less hatred for others. I grew up being repressed and not trusting anyone, so my wall and mask do go back up occasionally and I do end up feeling more vulnerable. It's a catch 22!

I wish you the best of luck 🤞

[I_Hate_Me_2]

c-mac I used to journal and write poems. I’ve not done so in a while now. It’s like I’ve lost my voice even if I never speak the words I write but sometimes share them.

@Hidden I don’t do any drugs or alcohol anymore. Went to a dark place whilst doing that.

@borderriever Been watching YouTube, watching old series I used to watch and going on Pinterest. Sometimes get some sayings I’m feeling but too scared to talk about. If that makes sense.

@cortez sunk further beneath the waterline a few times. Like trapped. Being pulled down further into the abyss. It’s the same to a certain extent about things I’ve hid away for so long but it’s so hard to be like this day in day out.

Get your idea about being in a catch 22. It sure is.