I’ve felt academic study stress for a while now and it has been triggering anxious and suicidal thoughts.
I haven’t felt brave enough to share this with anyone because my fear has been that I would be judged, bullied, or harassed for my anxiety and stress.
I don’t feel confident about my academic performance. I am anxious and jittery, and beat myself up at the smallest of errors. I know the study period is essentially to weed out errors, but I also see a tremendous amount of expectation set on me.
I don’t feel well enough to study. I don’t feel well enough to do anything except breathe and just exist. This feels like far more than what I can accomplish at this stage of my recovery process.
However, I have been keen to do this to avoid being condemned by my family members, who have been pressurising me into making this decision. I’ve felt unable to speak up for myself because of the state I’ve been in.
I need some support in making the right decision.