Feel unloved and unsure

[diamond47m]

I am very upset, I lost my husband almost 8 years ago. I have lost other people too either through death or stupidity. I have a boyfriend who I was actually married to for a month. His x wife had custody of their grandchild along with him and even though she is remarried she was always starting trouble. Anyway somehow the state got the kids adopted out. After that me and him decided to try to make it work again. It's now been about a year and a half, we live together with my 87 year old dad and my son. The problem is he only gets 1200 a month and he helps with 350. All our Bill's come to 2700 which my dad mainly pays. I had a job but lost it and now looking for another one. Also he hardly pays me much attention,he's starting to act like he did when we were married. I do love him and want it to work but I will not go through all the crap I went through in 2013. My son just loves him to death, he is like a second dad to him. It would hurt bad if this relationship ends

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Hello Diamond

You give everyone else so much love in your life.

There doesn’t seem to be any left for you.

Your cup is empty. Fill it by caring more for yourself.

On a practical note, I have a few questions for you. Please don’t take them as me judging you. Let’s work backwards.

Why would your son not have a relationship with your partner if he didn’t live with you? Is your son’s love for your partner not reciprocated?

You said in an earlier post that you would like a job in retail and also that you could work in McDonalds. Retail can be fun, even if it’s hard work. You can meet some really nice people.

You probably know that the only person you can change is yourself, because....wait for it....a leopard doesn’t change his spots.

Should we skate over how he helps out with 350 a month towards his keep? That leaves him 200 a week.

He would be lucky to get a room around here with shared facilities for that without heat, light and power let alone his food and fares to work. Is he not taking advantage of your 87 year old Dad?

Am I being harsh?

My dear, you count the days since your beloved husband died. Did you get bereavement counselling? It’s time. It might help.

You are only in your mid fifties. There is another lifetime of ease, joy and happiness waiting for you. Believe it, you deserve it.

Kind regards

Christophina

[Airwolf]

You have to do what's best for you and your family.It will be hard but you and you son need to be happy