Is it depression or not?

[crumbleskates]

Hi there. About one year ago I experienced what I thought was a panic attack. I was sat at home watching tv, when my brain felt like it was on overdrive and it wouldn’t calm. It was shooting off ideas, memories, random thoughts etc I broke down crying because it was so horrible and had to go to bed to be “unconcious”. The day after I experienced extreme tiredness. Ever since, I have random bouts of what I call an intense feeling of sadness and horribleness. I lose my appetite, feel tired, sad. And it’s a very very overwhelming feeling. It’s so strong that no matter what I do or think differently, won’t override this sadness. What’s funny is that it comes in spells and is usually in the evening. I can go a whole month of nothing, and then for a week I feel like I can’t carry on anymore. I’ve seen the doctor and had all the physical tests which came back normal. Even he said that most cases of depression it’s more consistent throughout the day. Ever since that one attack my life has never been the same as I’m constantly fearing this “feeling”. I lead a good life with close friends and family, I have a good job and I’ve always been a happy person therefore I don’t understand why I now can feel so horrific ever since this one attack. It makes me question if something that night happened to my brain chemistry or if I now actually have depression. Depression does run in the family but as I said I have no reason to be depressed and the fact that it all came after this attack makes me question it. Any thoughts?

[Ben_caldwell24]

Yeah it’s depression mate. I have had it for some time. What is it you worry about ?

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello crumbleskates and welcome to this supportive community.

It's good that you have been to see your GP and that you have had reassurance from your physical test results. Did your GP suggest any form of talking therapy as I feel this would be very beneficial to you in talking through your experiences and concerns with a professional?

Our members will share their own experiences with you and we will try to support you as much as we can. It is also good that you have close friends and family. What do you do for relaxation and fun?

Take a look around the site. There is a lot of useful information in the pinned posts.

Best wishes

MAS Nurse & Moderator