How to accept "the ordinary"?

[jinxjinxed]

I have been in this site for a while as a silent reader and sneakily taking notes here and there to help my long friend called depression. But right now I think I got something that I really needed to get out of my system. So thanks in advance for anyone who willing to read, giving some respond, and I am very sorry for my bad grammar.

First of all, i always been a "dreamer", not in a kind of dreamer as in realistic life goals, but more like..."fantasies" that i always hope will happen my life. It was like.. one thing that keeps me going in life is that one hope that my "fantasy/dream" will become reality. My fantasy is not anything special actually, in most case it was simply about how i want to be special, how i want to be part of some amazing or nice life "scene".

To be more specific, most of them are about the typical scene that u would found in the novel, movie, or comic about school life, "the wonder of school uniform time" or so on (i hope all of you can get my meaning from this confusing word of mine haha). Its like... special encounter on an empty classroom, how i can be the main character of some school event like field trip, how i actually have some special gift that everyone acknowledges, and any more event where.. i.. can actually for a moment be the center of...anyone attention??

Most of my hopeful fantasy is that kind of thing that can only happen in "student time", but soon my time as a student will be over yet not even one of those hope has come true. I know i have to move one, be more realistic, but i just keep being disconnected from life. The point is...i want to be special, but i know like how things are.. i was just another ordinary people, with ordinary life. but it hard to accept that..to actually felt content with ordinariness?? can someone tell me how to? can actually someone give me some advice about accepting reality yet still able to fell happy? or maybe i just have some narcissists side that i don't want to admit??

p.s i know and believe that "everybody is special in their own way" but please dont give me that, cause i know some special type is more "desirable" for me.

p.p.s i am sorry if i talk in such roundabout and confusing way, i know i just some blabber but i really hope. someone understand

[Ommi1001]

I know how you feel, I used to feel like this half of my life and I was always expecting something special to happen (like Dracula biting my finger and turning into Lady Dracula 2.0 😋). Sadly, vampires appear to avoid me. But something else interesting happened. I made some people feel special and that started a chain reaction and other people made me feel special too, although I still can't turn into a bat. 😝The need for appreciation and recognition are natural human features so don't judge yourself to harshly. 😉

[Hidden]

We are always mundane in someway to life challenges, however we are all very special as well, Everyone has a talent that others do not have and when we discover it we can challenge ourselves and succeed in what we enjoy. You sound very young and it can take time to understand how we wish to proceed down life pathway,

There is nothing wrong with having daydreams or fantasies, that is normal however it is important you are able to run with them and fulfill your dreams and expectations as long as these fantasies are not negative or hurtful to others.

Live the dream the world can do with more dreamers who can make things happen

BOB

[Humankind-BE_BOTH]

As a teacher I'm 😭 that you do not have a trusted "go to" adult to talk without fear or judgement.

As far as special I have learned this: "everyone has a prosecutor living in their head ... not everyone has a defense attorney"

Make sure that you become your defense attorney... everyday!