The last few days and weeks have been great!! I had come on here in December of last year and I cried my heart out while writing some of my messages!!. I had left my job (that I loved) due to a toxic/septic work mate and found myslelf unemployed, alone, old, lacking in confidence and for the first time in my life thinking "how did I get here"???
I did go over a few hurdles and fell flat on my face and got up and had to wait until the bruises faded before trying again and I did..... and I did this quite a few times until I found where I know I belong. I have been there for just over 3 months now, have had my "three months probationary talk" and have been told that I am now a "fully paid up member" of the company!!! Great!!! Yess!!
But today, the Confidence Monster came out and made me feel like the new 5 year old in the playground with everyone else who were friends and I was once again the outcast!!... Why, even as a 52 year old woman, does this happen..???
Then I got to the bathroom and the water was freezinzing....Yes!!! the boiler had packed up!. I have got heating but I have got no hot water. The Electrician/Plumber is trying to fix it as I am typing this but I have got a feeling it is not capable of being fixed!! If that is the case then I am not sure of how much this is going to cost to replace the boiler and I dont know how much money I am going to be able to put aside per month to pay for this ugly heap of crap that makes me able to wash my hair in hot water. What choice do I have....hot water every day???? or two weeks in Marbella (the last time my bum was on a plane seat was 2009!!!)... Ah well...looks like my hair is in for a LOT of treatments and Ewen will just have to learn to boil a kettle!!! xxxx