I want to leave, I need forever peace

[Danuck]

I hate people, there are too many idiots in my world who always know better i seriously want to kill them, the system is set up to help, but all it does is destroying one, why.....................friends are the worst, my family i wish was dead because one whos what goes on in a sick mind, i can be good but the entire world makes me sick.

There are no friends, there are so called people who pretend to think they know what you feel, but when the .... hits the fan........they are all gone, live your own world and maybe you have a chance.

[PNIAuthor60]

I routinely hear this same sentiment from my eldest son and while hard to hear sometimes, it has been important for me to acknowledge because it stems from his devastating experiences in the world.

There were too many years when I erroneously thought I understood and would say stupid and insensitive things without having any clear idea of what it meant to live in his body and to experience the world as he has. We were estranged for years and it was this estrangement that helped me to see what I was doing wrong and realize how painful it was to have no contact with him. I also came to realize how much I wanted to be in a healthier relationship with him.

We are in a better place now and talk quite often. His viewpoint is very challenging but I must admit that I have learned a lot from him and continue to - he has mellowed with age, but has no tolerance for people other than his brother and I. He lives in an isolated place and prefers that to communities, cities and hordes of people.

Your assessment of the system is accurate. In our part of the country, we have lived within the cracks of our system for decades. It is disheartening, but still we are putting one foot in front of the other and living life the best way we know how.

I'm sorry that you have no reliable friends.

Thank you for the transparency of your post.

[Danuck in reply to PNIAuthor60]

Educate yourself, NEVER SUGGEST ANYTHING, listen and learn, death is only a second away, it's a ugly truth

[hypercat54]

I think most of us know that already Danuck but also know there is nothing we can do about it. The only thing we can do which is very important is to make our little corner of it better. If everyone did that then the world might become a better place. x