I'm a 33 yr old female with big polar 1 disorder. I'm also a emetaphobic. It's been 16 years and I'm tired of it. I just want to be normal. I'm afraid to do just about anything especially during flu season or around anyone who is ill or who has been. I don't know why I really don't but I hate it I just want to live a normal life and not worry about getting sick I typically don't get sick and when I do it's very mild but the fear is intense and controls a lot of my life and I just want to be normal.