So I finally got a diagnosis. I had been waiting so long for this time when I would finally know what was 'wrong' with me, what makes me different from other people. And now I get this diagnosis of EUPD (or BPD as many people know it I believe) and I don't know how I feel. On one side I totally relate to how this is me, I tick nearly all the boxes and it makes sense but then I don't know if it is me...like I'm married and have a job, even though I know deep down that I am incredibly lucky to have bosses that count themselves as second parents and a husband that allows me to push him to the edge and still always be there when I bounce back. The thing I'm most struggling with is the fact that I feel like there is no way to get better, there are no tablets to help me and no magic wands. I can go on a course to teach me how to deal with emotions but is that really going to help me when anger bubbles up, darkness takes over or pure euphoria consumes me? I can't see it even though I am willing to try. Everytime things get better there is another block to climb, my mood generally is up compared to before and now all I want to do is hang out with my friends, get drunk and dance in a room full of strangers... something my husband isn't overly happy about coming from a family of alcoholics... but currently it's what I survive for I long for the weekends when I can have a drink, feel good about myself, talk to people I don't know and dance till I drop...
I just don't know what to do anymore I've gone from being depressed to almost feeling too good...is that even possible?!
L x
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I'm pleased you have been given a diagnosis. Sounds as though you need to discuss your concerns and worries with your Doctor, so that they can fill you in with what you can expect for the future.
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a commonly occurring personality disorder that affects a person’s mood and the way they interact with others. It is agreed that there is no single cause of BPD but instead it is a combination of genetics, neurotransmitters, neurobiology and environmental factors. Estimates for how common BPD is in the worldwide population vary but it is thought that approximately 1.4% of the world’s adult population is affected. Previous studies also suggest that BPD is more prevalent in women, with figures suggesting 75% of sufferers are female. However, previous biases in diagnosis may have caused males to be diagnosed with a similar condition when they indeed have BPD. BPD can incorporate a vast number of symptoms which can be categorised into four areas; emotional instability, disturbed perception and thinking, impulsive behaviour and unstable relationships with others. Severe mood swings and strained relationships are not uncommon in BPD.
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Mood disorder diagnosis 
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Copying others emotions?
Emotional breakdown 
Emotional Isolation *Possible Trigger 
