I will get better, I know it and I know it because it's what I want. I just need to work hard on myself. Keep 'busy' it's my mantra.
Personally I love chanllenges. This is the reason why when I fell settled I'm filled with anxietes. Some of them are just figments of my imaginantion and some of them are tangible, yet very to happen such as attacts, after all I live in one of the busiest capitals in Europe .
I need to find a job not just to provide for my familly but also to feel happy and more at ease with myself.
I will be better! Although I'm still slightly paranoid...