Well, today I met up with my wife who had left me, I thought temporarily, to let me sort my health problems out only for her to say she wasn't coming back at all. She told me that my behaviour was getting out of control and reminded her of her first husband who became physically abusive towards her. Well, I would never ever hurt her and feel I am now, very slowly, taking control of my life again..........until today that is. I really don't know where to turn as she is my life. I know she hasn't reached her decision lightly but also know she won't change her mind on this. We are BOTH hurting like hell.