Just before I was supposed to leave for work the phone rang - didn't recognise the number so let it go through to ansaphone only to hear a message from one of my reports at work - saying that she was away because her daughter had taken an overdose on Saturday night. Picked up the phone at that point and we talked a bit. I've never met her daughter but I know that I was feeling rather shaken by it all and was actually rather glad that I'd got the news at home as it meant I had an hour to assimilate it all before I got into the office. Heaven knows what my colleague must be feeling like.
Unfortunately one of the elements of the cocktail is one that may have caused permanent damage so it's all very touch and go.
Among the good thing is that her partner and her daughter were both offered counselling.
Think I find it so difficult because I've just managed to free myself of the black dog having resorted to treating myself for a B12 deficiency in a way that actually works for me ... and discovering that that not only resolved neurological issues but has also eased anxiety and depression issues - had known that depression was a potential symptom but having suffered from it for so many years it has come as a bit of a shock to actually realise that B12 may well have been my problem for most of my life.
From some stuff I was reading last night it has even been implicated in some cases labelled as bi-polar.
If there are any of you out there who have suffered and find that drugs aren't helping please badger your GP to get tested for B12 just in case it is a factor for you as well. B12D week is coming up soon - end of October next week - think psychiatrists are starting to wake up to B12 as a factor in mental health problems but GPs are still a long way behind the curve and many think that it is a blood disorder when actually neurological and psychological effects are much more likely to be first indicators because people's diets these days contain much more folic acid (B9) and that masks the effect of B12 on blood cells. Wish I could wave a magic wand to make GPs wake up to just how much interest they need to take in B12 ... it's a lot cheaper to treat in general than doling out anti-depressants to B12 deficient people who won't respond anyway.
If anyone is interested then you might find 'Could it be B12? An epidemic of misdiagnosis' by Sally Pacholok an interesting read - she's an ER nurse in the US and has co-written the book with her husband who is an ER doctor.