I don't want anything.

[Pastor_of_Muppets]

I feel like meds are just artificially keeping me alive. I don't feel like ending my life, but I know that's what has to happen eventually. Medications give me energy that has no purpose. I don't sleep well, I don't feel well when I'm awake. I'm hollow, empty. Pain is the only thing I feel consistently. I don't want anything from my future. I make commitments because people in my life want me to keep going, but none of it is for myself. Why keep going if there's nothing I want to live for? The only thing I really want is for it to be over.

[Raggedy-Ann]

Thanks for this post. I know my depression will eventually win. I am existing. I have no dreams I want to work towards, nothing I want... It's lonely.

[Bogner45]

How are you feeling today?

[Pastor_of_Muppets in reply to Bogner45]

I feel as well as I ever do. I'm focused on making it through the weekend. My family has some things going on that I want to go smoothly. I've made extra appointments with my therapist and psychiatrist.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Pastor_of_Muppets]

Sorry I just read this one that answers my question about therapy

I hope your extra sessions went well

[Bogner45]

I understand. I'm sorry. You sound like you are helping yourself.

[Dolphin14]

Hi

I'm so sorry you are suffering.

For me I needed both the meds and the therapy to do the work needed to get my life back.

None of this is easy. Are you in therapy?

🐬

[amychris]

Ugh I feel this. What’s the point if living is miserable? I’ve tried everything to improve my life and nothing has made me feel better.