I should be running a lovely 10K race tonight but Iโve just reached the decision not to do it. It was a bit of a seesaw of a thought process during the day but eventually the sensible me had the loudest voice and told โthe niggle isnโt too bad and Iโm sure itโll be okโ me where to go ๐คฃ
Iโve spent far too much time on the IC with that attitude and Iโm trying hard to change my behaviour. But honestly, itโs hard isnโt it?
Nothing major. Iโve just had a bit of an ache around my hip/lower back. Iโm pretty sure itโs caused by my new orthotics. Iโve been building up the time getting used to them and I just think I need to take it a bit more slowly.
But that thought process getting to the final decision!!! Blimey. I wish it was straightforward.
I woke up this morning and immediately thought nope, I wonโt be running tonight. Itโs too sore. But as the day went on it felt quite a bit better so I thought itโs on again, it feels ok, Iโll be fine.
Then I kneeled down and thought no, itโs still there. Is it worth it? But itโs a lovely route, Iโve not done it before and I really want the bling ๐
I started making plans for what I would wear, what and when I would eat, what time Iโd need to leave home, where Iโd park, etc, etc.
Then I put on my shoes with my old orthotics and had a test run around the garden. Oh! I can feel it now. Would it get worse during 10K? Maybe the run will loosen everything up? (who am I kidding?) The bargaining we make with ourselves!
Then a new voice popped up in my ear, โhoy you. Arenโt you supposed to be more sensible? Remember all that time on the IC? Do you really want to go there again? Most of your injuries have been caused by running through niggles. Itโll be your own fault you knowโฆ.. nagโฆ.nag, nagโฆ.?โ
Then I remembered the new me. The sensible me. The sensible me made the decision. Iโm not running it.
My other thought is that I have another race next week and I really need to be ready for it because I really, really want the bling. Itโs awesome ๐
Letโs hope Mrs Sensible goes on holiday ๐คฃ