Today I decided to go for a 25 minute run after work using the Nike app, specifically a guided run called 'stress free run'. I have found this week very tough and the reality of the virus and how it's affecting my life just hit me rather hard a few days ago and ended up sobbing and in tears on the phone to my mum. I just felt this profound sense of loss that everything that I enjoy like choir, driving lessons, church, concert work and teaching piano had all suddenly been taken away and I'm left with food retail job (Sainsbury's) that I haven't really been enjoying for about a year now. Of course work has also been stressful with all the panic-buyers, less stock and a few people kicking off about our item restrictions too which didn't help how I was feeling either! This all happened when I wasn't running this week either to recover from my recent half marathon, so everything came to a head at the worst possible time to be honest! So it's safe to say that I have been feeling very stressed and worried about the whole thing so today I decided to just go for a run - My ankles have been niggling for the past few days but it got to a point that if I didn't go for a run today, I would have gone mad (or felt like it anyway...)!
So I got my trainers on, headphones in, headed out the door and just ran my usual route. I didn't care how far I was going or how fast my pace was, I just wanted to run to get rid of this stress and worry I have been battling with all week and boy, it was exactly what I needed! What struck me during the run was that I felt so strong and accomplished not just physically but also mentally! I was expecting there to be niggles from my half marathon last Sunday but there were no sign of them at all! I felt amazing and was going quite fast towards the end! I felt unstoppable! I also reminded myself that even though a lot is happening at the moment that you can't control, there is one thing you can control and it is going out for this run and nailing it! I now feel so much better and this I why I love running, it's a great relief from stress! I feel like I have more control over my thoughts now too - worried thoughts are still entering my head but less often and I can push them away a lot more easily now compared to before my run!
I also can't believe that it's a exactly a week ago that I ran my first half marathon! Madness! Hope we can still enjoy our running during this time and stay safe everyone!