On a new project at work and I am struggling like never before to keep up. I can't absorb info like everyone else (or like I used to) and I get confused and can't seem to remember anything! I'm not having a flare ... at least I don't so. Seems like the fog is all the time now. my colleagues are treating me so differently. they are not helping or being supportive and sometimes make me feel like i am intentionally screwing up or not paying attention.
if i report this to my boss i’m pretty sure they won’t accommodate me. my work is really mentally (more than physically) intensive and I am just falling so far behind. even the simplest of things evade me and it’s like my mind just won’t remember anything.
i was diagnosed with CNS lupus but was ensured that the fog would come and go. but that’s not happening. i feel so dumb and am worried my entire career that i spent 15 years building is gone and i’m worthless professionally I cry everyday now, especially after meetings where it's obvious i'm struggling. so humilated