Is when you chose, after days and days of broken, painful sleep, to take a mild, over the counter sleeper to try and get some much needed rest, only for the payback of this gentle rebelion, to be, waking up after the first full 5 hours seep in a long time, in urine soaked bedclothes. .....
You were so tired that your lupus mind played that awful trick of teling you , in a dream that you got up, went to the bathroom and all was well......
Then, rather than admit to your carer or family that you had an accident, you place the offending articles in a bin bag, throw them in the outside bin, hope no one notices and use the internet to order fresh.
Thank the universe for the internet, next day delivery and a credit card.
This was my first experience of losing bladder control, it was not my last...........the difference now, my carers and family know, it does not make it any less humiliating. ....😶🚾