I do as much as I can but by evening time I'm useless. I cannot walk literally.I sit on my bed with my foot massager and only walk to the bathroom.And it seems every evening a stupid person the same person thats lazy is asking me to do extra stuff I did not plan on.Like yesterday.I was told at noon someone else was making chicken and sweet potatoes for dinner.Other wise I would have prepared something to throw in the oven, like I do when I cook.Or just make a lean cruisin and feed my daughter her baby food.But no that person is feeling lazy and comes to me at 8:30pm asking me to make the dinner they said they were making.AFter I cooked the dinner for whole family the past 10 evenings.It pisses me off cause I dont want to repeat myself over and over. I feel like a broken record,no I feel like **** ,no I feel like ****.I let my 10 month old finger paint and it took all the energy I had. If I knew I was going to be asked to do someone else's lazy **** "they just didn't feel like doing" .I would not have done the extra finger painting cause I knew I would be completely useless afterwards.A whole house full of people nobody works. I'm on SSDI the only other person that works and I are the only ones who cook, clean ,grocery shop.It's freakin BS.If you're not working then help do house work something my god. How can you be that lazy.I am in terrible pain and I still clean do my own laundry, grocery shop, cook dinners WHT is wrong with these people.And this is an ongoing thing. Not only does this person not do ****. They are offering other people to do **** they do not want to do.Like "NO I DON'T WANT TO BUT SARAH WILL DRIVE YOU" Is that crazy or what??I hate repeating how horrible I feel I just want to do what i am able to do and be left the heck alone!You would think after the doctor confirmed .I have lupus and how bad it is and I have paperwork stating these things, people would get it and stop being such lazy *****.Its not easy getting on SSDI you have to be really ill and prove that to the courts and not able to work.I feel like nobody understands how bad I hurt. Even if I say it nobody gets it.I'm in so much pain I cry every night/evening.I hate not being able to do what I use to.I think their thoughts are"she's only 32 she can't be that bad off...And when I see healthy people just wasting their energy I wish I had, it pisses me off!Rant done.I'm glad I let my baby finger paint her first Masterpiece she had a lot of fun. And I'm glad I did that and refused to cook afterwards.. PAINT EVERYWHERE see I had a big mess to clean.
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