Covid19 thoughts

Since I lost my job from covid19, I've had plenty of time to sit and think about my life. Some things I already knew about myself and some are new things im learning. What I know is that I have been an introvert my entire life and I love being alone and I prefer it. As much as I love my family, I want to be alone so no one can see who I really am I think. Prob all part of anxiety and depression. One thing I need advice on from others is that I noticed that my anxiety has gotten less since I'm not working. My patterns have changed. When I was working, I would dread waking up every morning ( usually really late) and felt sick the entire time ( dizzy, nauseous) until I actually got to work and it subsided. If I had to work at night, my entire day was ruined until I went to work. I'd sleep wicked late and wake up sick and just sit around and dwell on how I have to work soon. Now that I'm not, I feel at so much peace not having anything expected of me. This is the first time since I was 15 that I haven't worked full time. It's weird but I have so much relief. But then on days when something is expected from me- today for example- I have to do something expected of me for only a couple hours and again I woke up late feeling sick and dwelling all day. It ruins my entire day and things I want to do like go for a walk, seem impossible and I convince myself I have no time. Every other day I get up early and feel okay. Who else feels this way?

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Hello

I don't work because of my MH problems and some physical one's but as I read your post somehow I could still relate as I know if I was in a position to work I feel I would feel just like you do

I also picked up out of all this horrible situation that is happening at the moment that for you something positive is happening which is you are getting to know yourself more as well as having a break from what makes you anxious going to work

I don't know what job you do , if you are in the UK etc but I wonder when all this is over if you could see your Doctor , explain all this how you suffer and maybe speak with your manager and go part time or get support from work ?

But for now enjoy the peace you are getting with not having to worry about going to work and maybe spend the time thinking how you could change things to help make you life more manageable

Sorry I have no advise as such but wanted to let you know someone is listening

Take Care x

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Thank you! I'm actually a self employed hairdresser.. so I'm my own boss. I can change my hours and basically do whatever I want... But I also can't because I rent my own space By myself and need to pay the rent! ( I'm sure you can understand why I work alone lol..)

So this not working because of the virus is killing me financially and causing a lot of panic but also I noticed the anticipation of going to work bothers me. Ugh.

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Hi

I could do with you next door asp , my hair is in a dreadful mess and I made a huge mistake I had a go myself did not turn out as it should as you will imagine

Are you in the UK as the government I believe are suppose to be helping people that are self employed

Remember that if you are in the UK , phone gas & elec etc if you are struggling they all are supportive and helping people in your situation

Try and put all this to one side ( I know not easy )

Put we are powerless at the moment , let's try and focus on this virus doing one quick and then look at our situations , they may not be as bad as we think x

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Hi!

I'm actually In the USA. I'm pretty much getting no help at all. I was rejected for unemployment and haven't gotten a stimulus check but everyone else around me has. My bills keep piling up and I'm not offered much forgiveness. It's like everyone is reaching out to grab all my money while nothing is coming in.

Sounds like people are being taken better care of in the UK.

I see complete cheaters around me who lie about everything getting money from the govt while I'm here suffering and getting no help at all. It makes me so beyond angry.