My mom used to tell me that it will work out and sometimes i believed it and sometimes she was right. 😉 And the other times well I had become angry over a few things not coming to be until I let them go as did peace flow back into my heart. One thing I focus on is letting myself relax before an event or action I must take, as the most important to me had equaled how anxious I should be but not I know it’s impirtant to chill and save up that energy for when the event actually is due and not to much fuss and stress before it. I think Paxil has been helping me get to a place in which I now have more of a choice. But still as we go into a new year I am confused about my dreams and I hope I get more of an understanding as to what the important ones are. i think I haven’t really realized some of what I imagine I will be going for. I don’t know if I believe i will accomplish much but do imagine it’s possible. We must be careful of what we allow ourselves to believe. The thoughts are so quick to move we might grab a hold accidentally taking it as true instead of filtering it out. Or let one great one slip away. I chose to pick out the positive thoughts I notice and then in a way they are me, following along, making healthy choices and helping the growing. So yeah I’m growing. Healing. Becoming okay I pray.