So right now I'm sitting at a bench in a restaurant. I'm feeling every single symptom that makes me run away to my comfort zone. In this case in our car. My bf got frustrated with me saying that yeah okay you're having an anxiety attack but that doesn't mean you can't do anything. I know where he's coming from but if he knew what went on in my mind he'd be a little more gentle with his words. Who doesn't wanna have a normal movie date night? I mean I don't do this for fun. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy which I'm not. Or maybe how my breathing is off. Nope just thinking it. I know my surroundings are real but sometimes it is just scary. Again, I don't do this for fun and when I do take steps forward I get knocked down on my ass and having to figure out how the hell to get up. I look at all the people here and I feel like I'm the only one going through this.. I know it's not true. Sometimes it's hard for me to even walk. Like I can't walk. If that makes any sense. Like I'm learning how to walk again. Anyone else feel this? Like I'm at the theaters right now and I feel like crying.. Crying bc I let my thoughts consume me everyday.