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[LostInMyHead87]

I am 30 years old and have been exhausted with life for as long as I can remember. I have had severe anxiety, depression, and immense highs and lows my entire life. I am currently in the best and happiest situation/time of my life, but I can't seem to be in it, or even be okay.... I can't do this anymore.

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Hello LostInMyHead87 & Welcome

I know that feeling only to well of feeling so exhausted and as if you are dragging yourself through each day , going to bed feeling like you have not slept all night because you get up feeling just as tired as when you went to bed as well as nice things can be happening around you but you feel on the outside looking in and the list goes on

This is anxiety/depression and how it affects us and there are times when we feel we just cannot carry on anymore that is normal but we find somehow the strength to do so and you will to and things will get better

Are you getting any kind of help and support at all with how you are feeling ?

Have you anyone you can talk to and confide it ?

You say you are in a good place in life yet can't seem to be in it , can you expand a little more on that so we can try and help the best we can

Know how you feel we have all felt the same feelings , you are not alone , you have friends here that will understand and listen to you , I hope even if in a small way that will help

Take Care x

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Glad you have joined our community ~ where support is always on hand.

You seem to be overwhelmed by life at the minute. As lulu has said maybe if you explained a bit more whats going on ~ we could offer more advice.

You have taken a positive step by coming on here. So good on you for that.

Wishing you well 🙂

[Fumble]

Hi, I’m sorry to hear that while your life is going well, you feel detached and you don’t feel happy. You are strong, hang in there, you are not alone.

Take care

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Hello Fumble

Nice to meet you & Welcome x

[LostInMyHead87]

Thank you all. No I am not currently seeking help. I have In the past but I have a habit of stopping my treatment/counseling, sometimes I stop because I feel great for days/weeks and don't feel like I need it anymore then other times I feel so down, depressed, and hopeless that I give up. I have lows and highs it seems, sometimes I feel like I can conquer the world and then I can barely will myself out of bed. As for my life comment... I am currently in the best relationship of my life with a real man that has not only helped me find myself but has given me a Wonderfulhome with financially stability and love. These are things I've never had. I've been in relationships and have Beautiful children from them but had never felt at home or that my future held more than content struggle filled monotonomy... In the past few years I have found strength in myself... Alas I feel that this thing inside me senses that and is fighting harder than before. I've always known this darkness in me, it's a part of me, I accepted that long ago but I'm tired of feeling like a passenger when I look back on my life.

[MariaLove123 in reply to LostInMyHead87]

Hi there! Thank you for sharing. I feel that way too somedays but seeing a therapist, psychiatrist, maybe being on medication is so important. You should definitely share on here and get support but you also need professional support. Take one day at a time. Start doing small things. Hope you feel better!!

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Hello LostInMyHead87

One thing that screamed out from your reply is when you say you have had help before but then stopped it before it has finished because you felt better , I think this could be a huge part of the answer to what you need to do

When we get for instance a course of antibiotics for an infection , what do they tell us ?

Finish the course even if you feel better before you do because otherwise the chances are the infection will come back

When the mind is broken and unwell we need to stick with the same advise , whatever therapy we are having stick with it till the end otherwise like you have found it may come back

I would try and get myself some more therapy and this time I would keep going till they told me not to go anymore , why not give it a go , what would you have to loose as your way does nit seem to have worked 100% so far so maybe theirs just might

I am pleased you are in a relationship that is meaningful and you are feeling and getting the love and security you deserve , maybe the way you feel is saying you don't deserve this but you do as well as you deserve support with your anxiety/depression so think about going back again and getting it

Let us know how you get on x

[Cat33]

Sorry to hear how you are feeling and hope that you will soon be able to embrace and enjoy the times you are in now

DARE by Barry McDonagh is excellent as is Self Help For Your Nerves by Dr Claire Weekes her words are very comforting and reassuring that no matter how long you have been ill you can and will get better

Look for simple pleasures and gratitude each day and slowly happiness will replace sadness

You are young and have years to enjoy true happiness

Take lots of care 😊

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Hello LostInMyHead87

Nothing more annoying than being in a good place and not being able to appreciate feeling it. I believe it is common to feel 'numb' or 'emotionless' whilst depressed.

I hope you have a support network and perhaps a check in with your healthcare provider to ensure you're on the right medication and dose as well as receiving all appropriate treatment.