Hi all,
Still struggling with anxiety. I've been on over 10 different antidepressant pills in the last 4 years. Recently diagnosed as Bipolar 2. I've been on mood stabilizers for the last month and I love them so far.
I was having upwards of 15 panic attacks in the night, I suffer from insomnia occasionally and I am 78 days smoke free (yay!). I am 34, with a 13 year old ASD son and a 11 year old Severely ADHD daughter. My Mom passed away Nov 9, my dad 8 years ago.
I am telling you these things because I know they contribute to my stress and panic attacks. I feel so badly for my poor husband, he's wonderful and the ups and downs I have went through lately really affects him.
I've threatened suicide lately (before the mood stabilizers) and he worries constantly about me. I can't snap myself out of these issues. The mood stabilizers have helped a ton but I don't want to be on them forever..... I know I need a therapist but it's like a needle in a haystack for a great one.
Mental illness sucks.