Hi everyone, I'm Anna and I'm 20 years old, I was admitted to ICU over a year ago now (Jan 2016) due to septic shock caused by an rare retro-pharyngeal abscess infection between my spinal cord and my esophagus. I don't remember any of ICU however my mum kept a diary to help me piece together what happened. I thought I just had a throat infection and the next minute I was having emergency surgery, the doctors still don't know why it all happened so I guess I'm a medical mystery! I live with two constant reminders of this experience in the form of two large scars on my neck. Although they have become less red and prominent over time people still look and ask about them. If anyone has any advice or good tips as to how to care for them or reduce their visibility that would be great! If I'm honest I've only just really started to mentally deal with what happened within the past few months, at the time doctors would tell me that 'I didn't understand how ill I was' but I think it was more that I was mentally pushing it aside so I didn't have to think about the severity of it. I have noticed that my memory and thought processes have become a lot more strained since ICU, especially prominent since I'm now at university studying history. I also still tend to get very emotional around the day of my operation every month, almost like my body remembers the ordeal and then my brain has to catch up as to why I'm suddenly so emotional, I just wondered whether anyone else has experienced this or received any help or advice for their altered cognitive function. It's very comforting that there is a group like this as I often find that its very hard for people (especially of my age) to relate to an experience such as this and find it hard to know what to say.