I recently came home after a 3 month illness. I had ARDS and septic shock and spent several weeks in ICU on life support. I have no memory of the time in ICU and for several weeks after. I also have no memory of being sick at home for 3 days prior to being diagnosed. I hear many stories from family and friends, but I want so badly to remember things for myself. When I try to remember, I get panic attacks , but I can't remember anything. Has anyone else had this problem?