I spent over a month in the hospital, two weeks icu in a coma, the rest in a step down unit and acute rehabilitation. I still get flashbacks and panic attacks, not often. I have a lot of holes in my memory and still hate having my bedroom door closed. I realize that the memories from icu were hallucinations (nurse trying to kill me, dead people being wheeled around the icu), but it all still seems real. I see a therapist, but I don't talk about it with friends or family. It can feel lonely.