I have a temporary place to live now -- i have my dog Casey - i was out of my home with Mary on the 17 th of this month -- it was hard -everything was a memory, a thought -a laugh. my blood has been REAL bad 2.4 on mondays test then 7.9 on thursdays test-- emotional state not good --aaaaaaaaaaaaaaALL my doc's have me under a microscope- i see a social service worker for my mental well being. on strong morphine patghes on my back i have to have changed every 7 days --they also have me on 2 more pain killers that are in pill form i take those 3 times a day-- and yes along with all my other pills -- i have a new Doc for a eheumy and i fired my pcp -i had a major blow out with him and pretty much told him in no uncertain terms just what i thought of his screw ups and mis-diagnossises. i also took him in front of the chief doc for the entire hospital. i am still waiting on some info on what to expect next . but you know with what i have been thru the last 2 monthsi could give a s---- less. i have no home phone so for those of you i was calling i still don't know when that will be.i take things one day at a time now. thank god for Jess i would most likley be dead now had it not been for her. any thanks should go to her. going to my doc's appts with me as i couldn't speak for myself-just to mentally screwed up and scatter brained to remember or retain anything.been trying to E sheena but no sucess.and nothing from suez. hope the rest of you will get back - have missed you all. my SS worker wants me back to you guys asap. she is very worried about me also -- i just got back on line last night at 9:00 my time...-------------------------------------- thanks your brain cramped friend ---- jet .